Here it is! We have finally reached the month of October. Not only is it Breast Cancer Awareness month, but we have received an important phone call in the last week. As you already know, as of August 31st my mom finished her chemo treatments, but could not move on to do surgery because of her heart. Tomorrow we go back to the Cardiologist, so that they can do yet another echocardiogram to double (really triple) check her heart to make sure everything is okay to proceed. The phone call that happened came in last Wednesday was to set the date of her surgery. We have been on a stand still for the past two weeks, mostly on purpose so that she could rest, but now we begin to prep for this next new chapter. Her surgery will be held on October 14th, but we will begin prep October 12th, so I beg for your prayers on those days. I am excited for this next chapter but at the same time, I am scared to death. I am scared for her and I am scared for me as well. I have no idea what this chapter holds or what will be written into our story. I have never be really active during Breast Cancer Awareness, yet if we are all honest with each other no one truly is until you or some one you love is going through it. I never would have dreamed that this would be my life or that I would be living the life I am right now. Ever since my parents divorced and my mom, second oldest brother, and I ran for our lives from an abusive father my worst nightmare was that my mom would get sick and I lose her. In these situations in life, I become like everyone else and hope for the best but fear the worst. I love my mom so so much and I honestly do not know what I’d do without her. We have this thing that we do every night before I go to bed and as I get up to leave the room I’ll tell her,” I love you mommy.” She’ll reply by saying, “I love you sissy,” I’ll say I love you more, she’ll say I love you most, and then to end this constant back and forth I’ll say, “I love you more than most.” From the time I was a little girl, she’s always told me that I love you from the moon and back. We share these simple words between us, but to us they mean the world. As her surgery day approaches it seems as everything has become real. I have been by her side through every doctors appointment, every chemo treatment, losing her hair, becoming discouraged, no longer wanting to fight, and I’m still here now. I found this picture on the internet that said, “Her battle is my battle, and I’ll be supporting her till she wins.” No matter how long it takes I’ll be there for my momma and no one can tell me otherwise. I don’t know why God allowed my mom to get cancer or why we are in the situation we are in now, but I have to trust that he has a plan for us and a plan for me. I would have no hope if I didn’t and would be very lost even more than I am now. I long for the day that the doctors declare my mom cancer free and can only hope that, that day will be someday soon. I ask that you keep my family in your prayers these next few weeks as we are facing a lot of change. I also ask that you comment any prayer requests that you have. I love my followers and everyone that reads my posts and I would love to pray for you! Until next time…

Sincerely,

The Caregiver ❤️

XOXO